Am I ready to come off my medication?

The dreaded blog post on the latest with my medication taking to make me sane….

Last month I did a 5 months on from taking medication for mental health which you can read all about here – so happy 6 month birthday if it’s anything to celebrate?

Quick recap in the last 6 months:

• I’ve become a better version of myself.

• I certainly went through the worse to get to become the best I could be.

• Do I regret it?

• The side affects that made me feel AWFUL

• My anxiety has gone from 100% (not leaving the house alone or even entering Tesco on my own without freaking) to miss independent watch out Shanice is on a mission.

• The downsides outweighing the good?

• The weaning process to get off them freaks me out!

• Have I missed out on the majority of my life feeling like this, when it could have been solved years ago?

How has it affected my relationships?

I could honestly go on and on with bullet points on the details I’ve dealt with over the period.

I’ve got to that half way point if you like where I’m like should I start to ween myself off these? I cannot rely on these for life? If I don’t do it soon, will I ever do it? Will I be 65 and still dependent on a tablet to keep me from having a break down?

I just don’t even know where to start…being honest I’ve been avoiding calling my doctors to book a review which was meant to be after 3 months! Ooopsssss

I don’t think I’m ready to hear the words: let’s try get you off these and become independent yourself.

It’s not a nice thing to hear and doesn’t exactly sound the same as when you say it to yourself in your head?!

I cannot stress enough for me personally on my journey of taking Sertraline – I have come out the other end a better individual. The confidence has been insane – the confidence has always been there since I was little but that dark depression and anxiety over powered it and that’s what I came across as to most people.

Nothing broke my heart more as well than hearing my nan the other day say to me “Shanice I cannot believe how much of a confident person you are now, in yourself and how you come across” – it’s not the nicest thing to hear and also the nicest?! It’s almost saying you’ve improved yourself as a person but is also a wake up call to the imperfections you had once before and will always have.

EVERYBODY HAS IMPERFECTIONS – let me scream that loud and clear.

We’re not all Barbie and Ken dolls and live in Malibu driving round in a convertible….

Harsh but true, everyone has underlying insecurities and this is why I want to get it out there that it’s OK to talk about these things!

I’m hoping the next post I write regarding this topic, is when I’m in the process of coming off Sertraline- but only time can tell hey?!

It’s my own goal I have set and I’m not saying it’s right for everybody as everyone works differently – it’s my personal preference!

Until next time.

Shanices Peaches

LFW 2019 roundup…

I attending my second LFW (London fashion week) – but I’ll keep it cool and trendy abbreviating it.

First of all I just LOVE the vibe, atmosphere and everything about LFW! Its like all the people you have dreamed about meeting, your fashion sisters all in one place?! It’s just refreshing for everyone to be on the same wave length and not competing against each other you know?

However I didn’t really experience it, but I’ve heard people are noticeably stepping their foot in when trying to be the “best” at fashion week…. it really isn’t a competition just saying!

It’s all about loving one another, supporting that person like yaaaasss queen you go!

It’s just like going into multiple shops and seeing multiple type of styles – that’s what LFW is like and I LOVE IT! All the different vibes are what I am about and I love the inspiration people bring to others.

Oh and of course it’s also meeting babes you speak to over your socials but never have had the chance to meet, which I super enjoyed doing so!

It’s hectic I’m not going to lie, running from one show to another even though you had a huge gap in between but you were dossing about… being my second fashion week I didn’t have that much to compare to. However I will say one thing, they over gave out tickets for sure to the point where my friends weren’t able to get into a particular show because it was that jammed back – which sucked!

I was lucky enough to be invited to certain shows this year and of course I took advantage of that as I adore watching a fashion show and all it’s uniqueness it has to fly down that catwalk.

You network with people you never knew about…I met so many lovely photographers who wanted to take street style photos of myself which felt amazing – like wow they actually want me and like how I look?

Below is a round up of some of the photos I’ve managed to get my hands on!

The particular photo above was featured in the fashion scouts street style round up article which I will link here – am I famous yet? Just kidding haha.

It’s rewarding and makes you feel good! Especially when you are living, breathing and all about FASHUNNNNN.

I for sure want to do the full week this coming September fashion week, as duties called and I had to cut it short and return to work!

Some advice for anyone as silly as me….

Rules to go by:

Bring comfortable shoes = heeled boots left my feet feeling broken and bringing a back up saved my life.

As the saying goes though….pain is beauty

My feet for sure felt like they had been for a night out in stilettos!

I really hope you’ve enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed creating it!

** suit was gifted by public desire – you can shop it here **

** boots were gifted by public desire – you can shop them here **

** bag purchased from Topshop last year **

Shanices Peaches

Xox

How the blogging industry made me friends for life.

There is no other way of saying this other than Instagram – the social platform that can connect you with anyone and whoever!

I’ve always been one that enjoys making new friends, you never know your real life twin might be out there waiting for you?!

Your soul sister.

Making friends is just something I love to do, there’s so many people in the world that are unknown by you and why not communicate?

That’s why I have Instagram to thank but especially the blogging industry – ever since I started blogging I would have conversations with the loveliest girls, about clothes and blogging etc!

It’s super easy of course to start a conversation with anyone, as you can do on any social media platform – thankfully we have requests to stop the weird unnecessary messages that go straight to delete. (By that I mean the weird men that send you how are you blah blah) sorry not today my friend.

Of course with anything there is the bitchy side but fortunately I haven’t experienced that yet – besides the people that do the follow unfollow technique, which pretty much hurts my feelings so I’ll take it as they don’t want to be friends haha and they just want my follow.

I see you.

The other thing I have discovered making new friends via is blogging groups – a group where all bloggers give each other support, opinions and meet up for shoots etc.

If that doesn’t say girl power, I don’t know what does.

It’s just the warmth from the girls that actually want to make friends and better you as a person which I love to see. Not just the ones that want the follow, the number to add to their following.

Believe me I have met a few of those and me being me – I am super sensitive so of course I take it to heart when I’ve noticed that fab girl with the fab outfits unfollowed me – oh.

It does make you question your page sometimes without a doubt, but remember they just wanted the follow not to join your growth journey!

It’s empowering supporting one another and I have met some of the loveliest people in my experience of it so far – it’s just fabulous!

GIRL POWER GIRL POWER GIRL POWER

shout it loud and clear ^^^

We hang out, shoot together, attend events, help one another, have brunch dates, general girl chat and of course send each other pictures for advise, that’s what friends are for right?

Friends are also the best critiques and will be deadly honest – but you probably will do it anyway haha.

Sometimes I wish I had more hours in the day to go out and actually meet up with the ones I believe would be amazing friends, it just doesn’t happen when you work 9-5 and can only travel to places on the weekend!

I really enjoyed writing an uplifting blog post for once and I have many more planned to come!

This idea actually came to me at 3am and I had to get up, pick up my phone and write it in my notes before I went back to sleep and forgot – but it must of been on my mind because I woke up at 6 to complete it.

Until next time.

Shanices Peaches

Xox

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7 cool cafes on the map…

I’ve been meaning to write a blog post all about this and it’s been sitting in notebook to produce this!

All dedicated to cool cafes on the map.

Giving it away by the title but if you are a foodie as much as me, sit down and grab a hot chocolate you’ve got some reading to do!

So when I have a free weekend, I usually will search cool cafes etc in my area (Essex) if not in London. I like finding unique places to eat brunch in and try something new….anyone else agree?! Slightly the reason is because they will be a picture heaven.

I just like to explore and find new places, especially the independent cafes that not every human, cat and dog have been to!

I’ve listed below all my top cool cafes I recommend and address if you fancy a venture.

1. Elan cafe – a bloggers favourite.

If you haven’t seen this cafe plastered all over Instagram, maybe refresh your page lol. It is definitely a location people will go for pictures and get that cute candid shot! The good thing is there is now 4 scattered across London and they all have slightly different interior.

Address: 239 Brompton Road, Chelsea London, SW3 2EP (Chelsea branch, which is the current newest).

2. Maison Bleu – Essex

I come across this independent cafe on the news page surprisingly and I instantly fell in love. I immediately text my friend asking if she had plans for the weekend?! With the most welcoming owner and afternoon tea to beauty and the beast I was sold. We just popped in for a waffle but it for sure looked amazing. Also including a gift shop out the back with the most beautiful home pieces.

Address: Meon Cl, Chelmsford, CM1 7QQ

3. Peggy Porschen – another bloggers dream

All I can start off by saying is visit Peggy Porschen early. There will be lines of people from probably 10am onwards and it doesn’t cater for probably more than 15 people. I’m going to be brutally honest on this cafe, I was so up for getting a photo with the beautiful pink floral walls and look all candid. However in my opinion it really is just an Instagram spot and not for sitting down sipping on your hot chocco. Maybe I went on a bad day but wasting £7 on a drink that I couldn’t even stomach was not selling it to me.

Address: 116 Ebury Street, Belgravia London, SW1W 9QQ

4. The Glasshouse Tea Room – Essex

I found this tea room by word of mouth and my obsession continued I had to visit it of course. With the vintage feel, afternoon tea service and the most amazing panini I felt right at home. Another independent cafe but they for sure put the love into what they serve.

Address: 118 high street, Braintree, CM7 1LA

5. Cereal Killer Cafe – all kinds of cereal

This was on my bucket list for years and after visiting it last year I dream of going back. It serves any kind of cereal topped with whatever milk e.g strawberry, bubblegum whatever you want! They also cater all the American cereals you cannot get in supermarkets! Not to mention awesome interior, see the second photo below and you sit on literal beds.

Address: 129a Brick Lane, London, E1 6SA

6. Spectrums collections cafe – pink hue dreams

So this cafe opened up newly last year, it was an extension of the brush brand spectrum collections. Pretty amazing, I actually visited here by myself and the lady who worked in the cafe became my photographer. I can not fault this place in the slightest, it’s not as well known I believe so it hasn’t become so hectic you cannot sit down as it probably only seats 15-20 people.

Address: 43 Carnaby st, Soho London, W1F 7EA

7. Farm girl – food heaven

Firstly I will say this is another cafe to either get there early or book a table. We ended up waiting 45 minutes which was worth it but it wouldn’t of been if it was raining. Farm girl is another one of those Instagram places that everyone ventures to and of course I wanted to go check it out! We stopped for a late brunch and it was definitely worth the wait! There is three branches in total so research which one you would like to go to first!

Address: 59A Portobello Road, London, W11 3Db

I hope you have enjoyed my top 7 cool cafes and the slightly different blog post to give you some inspo because I am always looking for cool places. I will for sure do an updated one, when I find some more places I think are worthy to be added to the list…

Until next time.

Shanices Peaches

XOX

*watch was gifted from Adexe London*

A down day…

I feel like recently my blog posts are turning into everything relating to mental health but it’s an important subject and something to close to me at the moment!

I wanted to write this today, whilst sitting here having a “down day”. Probably the most awful I have felt in a couple months! I’ve been feeling quite over whelmed lately and followed by mini minor breakdowns and panicky stages I couldn’t managed to get myself out of bed this morning.

I feel so useless when I just cannot bring myself of out bed or feel that I cannot achieve anything in that day. Another day off work but I know it’s near breaking point so I need that day to re charged myself???

It’s a viscous circle really…of not wanting to over do it but not wanting to get yourself stuck into a rut again?!

I just cannot help some days feeling so overly emotional and mentally exhausted, that I psychically cannot do anything. I’m sitting in bed each night going over and over pointless shit that’s not even relevant leaving me with not enough sleep that my body is craving!

It’s hard especially when you want to please everyone, but at the end of the day you have to remember you are the number one priority!! YOU! There’s only one of you and you have to look after yourself by all means…

I know everyone is different but in my case I just get myself into a pickle when it gets to much that I just loose it and breakdown! – sad but it works I’ll run myself a bath when I know that’s on its way to just soak into the burning water and forget about the world for 30 minutes or so!

Life puts strain on you and when it does you need to nurture it and look after yourself.

I even started attempting some yoga and stretching just to release all that bad energy before I go to sleep, but it’s early days to say if it’s working!

I’ve had CBT: cognitive behavioural therapy

Same again… personally I didn’t see any improvement from it but some of the techniques I learnt from my sessions helps on days like this!

It’s be little things like just breathing exercises or creating a mind map of what’s going on in that brain – there are things out there to help situations like this but some days it does get the better of you.

Being honest even just talking to somebody else can make a world of difference, it takes you from that dark place and puts your mind elsewhere.

My boyfriend has been the biggest support I have needed ever since starting my medication and his educating himself on how to handle/cope – who you have around you can be a big impact! As much as I hate talking to people when I’m like this, I am thankful for it afterwards!

I used to blame it on so many other things like I feel sick or I have a migraine instead of just coming out and saying “I’m mentally exhausted”.

Another issue that I’ve come quite familiar with:

Brain fog:

I’ve spoken about this before and it’s something that happens more than i anticipated.

Definition:

Just always remember you know your mind and body better than anyone.

Listen to it when it is screaming at you to change how you’re doing something or just give yourself a break!

I hope this has helped some people!

Until next time.

Shanices Peaches

XOX